There are two ultimately consuming things in this world: love and hate. Both make you crazy either way. But then there are some circumstances where you feel both. Love and hate fully loaded. Talk about a headache. And heartache.
Love/hate feelings are the worst. Because half of you is in love and half of you burns with hate. It’s always with someone who means a lot to you, but you don’t want them to. But of course your heart never listens to your brain, so you’re all googley eyed over someone who doesn’t deserve you.
With love/hate feelings, it’s like you know you should not have feelings for someone, but for some reason you just can’t stop. There’s just so many emotions wrapped up into it and it just becomes so consuming. You go through phases of loving, hating, then loving again. And it just goes on and on. You say to yourself that they’re not good enough for you or you that they’re not what you want, when you know damn well that those are both lies. But you don’t want to admit it, because you aren’t ready to let go just yet.
How do we let go of something that has consumed us for so long? It becomes apart of us. We can’t remember what it’s like to go a day without thinking about them. Call us crazy, we don’t care. We know. And we try not to be, but it happens to the best of us. “You need to move on.” Oh wow, great advice I’ve never thought of that before!! Well, guess what. Easier said than done. Everyone moves on at different paces. And some people touch our hearts more than others. It’s not our fault we can’t get over something. We’ve tried to get over these love/hate feelings, but we can’t control it. We can only hide it. Which hurts even more.
Who else knows how I’m feeling? I know I can’t be alone in this world. Comment down below if you’ve experienced something similar.