Dear Diary · Everything

11:29 PM

Dear diary,

I’m working on becoming a better me. I’m working on getting happier, healthier, and stronger. It’s going to be a long hard ride but I’m determined to get there.

There is only one problem. I feel like I’m not doing it for me. I feel like I’m doing it for everybody else to see the new and improved me. How much skinnier I’ve gotten. How much happier I look. Maybe that’s the problem. I’m not really focused on being a better me rather than looking like a better me. So scratch that first paragraph.

I’m working on impressing myself. Not a boy or somebody I used to go to school with. I want to BE healthier and happier, not just look it. I’m going to stop comparing myself to others. I’m going to stop trying to change other’s opinions of me. I’m going to change my negative thoughts about myself. I’m going to be comfortable in my own skin. I’m going to be happier, healthier, and stronger for myself. I’m working on doing it for me.

There is no point in trying to impress other people. Yes, I want people to come back from college and think “wow, you’ve done something with your life since high school!” But if I don’t think it, what does it matter? If we don’t love ourselves for who we are, who is?

xoxo,

A.M.

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