Everything

The Funk

Funk: a dejected mood, according to dictionary.com. I am in a funk. Not a 70s kind of funk, the dictionary.com definition type of funk. So I’m cautioning you, I’m going to be the biggest complainer in the next paragraph.

I just feel so stuck. Stuck at both of my jobs. Stuck in California. I feel stuck in this life that I don’t want anymore. I am very grateful for my life don’t get me wrong. But there is something wrong when I had first written “I love my life don’t get me wrong” and I had to change it to I am grateful. I don’t want to be just grateful for my life. I wanna love it and also be grateful. I’m grateful for the people in my life, but I am so unhappy with the way my life is. And I know, you can’t have your cake and eat it too, but there is something about my life that doesn’t seem complete. I imagine the great life I want and it seems so real and it makes me so happy, but when I think about how to get there I’m stuck. I don’t know what is triggering all this funk and this stuck feeling, but I don’t know how to change it.

-A.M.

 

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